CARVINGS

2006-07-16T23:42:00.000+08:00

NEW BLOG @ msg me in msn

2006-07-13T13:50:00.000+08:00

hmm. i opened a new blog yesterday but it's kept private.
im opening a new blog for public soon. it's coming up tonight i guess.

2006-07-06T01:07:00.000+08:00

This is gonna be my last entry and it's going out to my sister. I don't know how long can this 'sister' remains in me. She blogged about my dad telling everyone she no longer have a father. This really pissed me off. The reason for hating my father is because he hit her. WHY HIT HER! Please, I was hit by Dad before and I din't even said such heartless words. Are you still under Goh's family ? She should really go and reflect on herself what has she been doing the past few months? You ask yourself, what are the changes in your life that resulted you to be like that ? Last year, you failed EOY and dint dare to show results, we dint say anything and expect u to do better this Mid-year. What we got back from you? You claimed you go friend's house study or was it playing TRUTH OR DARE ? Dad don't expect a lot from you, he just want you to pass but you fail badly. We give you good tutors but you chose to be with friends and the results have proven it doesn't works. Do you even reflect ?!? You claimed you've nvr won ANY compliments, how true can that be ? You did quite well for PSLE. Let me correct you, you have done too many bad over good so you've forgotten about it. Won't it be fine for you to hang out with other people rather than this new bunch of people with those STUPID PEOPLE inside? Im not gonna mention names but you know who you are. It's so immature of you to SAY THAT you don't have a father. HOW MANY DAUGHTHERS IN THIS WORLD ARE SO HEARTLESS !?! I BET YOU'VE FORGOTTEN YOU ARE A CATHOLIC ! ! ! Somemore you just went for confirmation. Since you hate dad so much, let's skip to Mom. I was so hoping you could change after what Mom had told you the other night. She shed her tears because this daughter doesnt bother about what her mom did for her. She don't like to be controlled by us so we gave her freedom. In return, she abuse the freedom and come home whenever she likes. My mom will always have to wait till she comes back before she could sleep peacefully, guess whad my sister said ; you can don't wait for me de what. So after that night, she still went out but came home abit earlier telling her friends, I upsetted Mom, can't stay out late. After a few days, history repeated itself. She claimed she will turn rebellious if we go against her but what we do when she go against us?! What's the world coming to ? Since you don't like dad, why don't you pay Dad the money you owe him over the 16years and leave the house and survive on your own? You caused me to say this. caused sounds familiar huh? You claimed that this house no longer seems like a home? Why not you go to THOSE PEOPLE houses and stay? Their hospitality is damn good right? Pizza, World Cup, Dog. You used ur WC winnings to share a dog and use this excuse to go study and look for dog at the same time. How much time are you actually wasting away? Oh ya. You've grown up and tend to fall in love with guys. I definitely allow you to do that. But you must be crazy to fall in love with an AH BENG. This has proven that you are still imature. Why? Can HE brings you any future? Can he provide you with stealing,betting and fighting around? I know Ah bengs are v. romantic and caring but there are so many guys out there. You saw this tree out of a few trees and chose him rather than exploring the whole rainforest. What have you learnt from this group of friends so far since you claimed they are your good friends? Feel free to say back all this stuffs in your blog. I will be delighted to reply. You better choose your path correctly. One wrong path, there will be no turning back. You like to use cause right? Don't cause your ownself to get into Girls Home.

2006-07-05T22:54:00.000+08:00

my blog not closed yet. thr will be 1 last post coming soon.

2006-07-03T12:28:00.000+08:00

blog closed due to some reasons.

donavan

2006-07-02T17:11:00.000+08:00

I was too crazy
*no comments

2006-06-30T10:31:00.000+08:00

Im so gonna design my own blog after WC2006 and my fucking NMM project. My blog can't face anybody. grrr' please let me win some more money from WC. i need the money to shop!

2006-06-28T17:06:00.000+08:00

today talked to amanda,dee,victoria,victor and baxter(?) i think. All brian's darlings. wth. hahaha. They were really crappy and nice to be with. hahaha. hmm. haven't been blogging much. I've cleared all my debt, thanks those who have helped me.

*I wonder why all chinese-indo girls are so pretty ?!
*maybe I should find an Indonesian girlfriend ! lol

2006-06-23T05:42:00.000+08:00

Wohoo. Today just rocks! Able to clear my debt my half through jackpot in soccer and drinking without worries @ Zouk & Mos. My virgin friend touched a girl ! ! ! WTH ! ! ! MOS ROCKS ! ! !

2006-06-22T00:49:00.000+08:00

I don't want anything more to do with this guy after this ZOUK thing. FUCK!

2006-06-21T02:58:00.000+08:00

damn fucked up. i cleared my losses. now the tickets are haunting me. you won't wanna know how much Im in debt.

2006-06-15T04:26:00.000+08:00

Im too crazy over World Cup.
I was winning in the 1st place.
Now Im bankrupt. It's really bad.
I just hope I could win back what I lost
bit by bit.

2006-06-14T05:03:00.000+08:00

Mich was right. These few days, here will be filled with World Cup activities. I lost money but have to accept it and climb back again.

2006-06-13T02:52:00.000+08:00

Had been shopping the past few days with boon and kim. I got to know Kim only for a few days but we are v. close cause we are BROTHERS. lol. On friday, bought 2 t-shirts @ $35 and 1 long sleeve shirt from Freshbox. If I still can win more money in World Cup, Im gna buy a Nike Dunk and shirt from Zara. I wanted to buy short sleeve collar shirt but kim says it don't suit me.

Target : 300+ for World Cup

2006-06-07T22:16:00.000+08:00

AMD Athlon 64 SystemCPU - AMD Athlon 64 (3 GHz) - Socket 939RAM - 1 GB DDR-400Nvidia PCI Express Display Card (256 MB)Harddisk - 200 GB, 7200 rpm (Seagate)3.5" Floppy DriveDVD - R/W19" LCD TFT Monitor (1280 x 1024)ATX 400W CasingCard ReaderKeyboardOptical MouseSpeakersPrice $1730/

im gna have a new com but im still not putting enough effort in my studies to deserve this.

2006-06-04T16:47:00.000+08:00

Do you ever realise when I regard them as buddies ?
Do you ever know I need them so much at certain times but failed to be there for me ?
Do you ever know what should one do when they see missed calls or unread msgs?
Do you ever know they had let me down again and again ?
Do you ever know the feeling of this treatment over and over again ?
Do you feel the same way as I am?

I forgive but the scars are growing deeper over the years

2006-05-31T20:35:00.000+08:00

I want to buy a laptop/desktop but I really dont have the money I think. At 1st, I wna hold it till next sem till I get back my results but the projects are irritating and my com is too slow for it. *waiting for money to fall from the sky

2006-05-23T23:39:00.000+08:00

I'm so DOOMED. NMM PROPOSAL NXT WK HAND IN. IISO REPORT TMR. CARC TEST TMR. WISH ME LUCK FOR TMR. )):

I spent a lot of efforts trying to learn how to fold the fake roses for you as a sign of an apology. I rake up creative ideas how to surprise you on your birthday eve. I woke up early today to go school and pleaded my friends to wake up early too. I forgotten about all my work just for this idea. But God's not on my side, you are pissed with me on this special day. I'm saying byebye to all my efforts. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU. GOD BLESS ((:

2006-05-20T17:13:00.000+08:00

Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In the pouring rain

Give me endless summer
I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time

As my soul heals the shame
I will grow through this pain
Lord I'm doing all I can
To be a better man

Go easy on my conscience
'Cause it's not my fault
I know I've been told
To take the blame

Rest assured my angels
Will catch my tears
Walk me out of here
I'm in pain

2006-05-20T17:05:00.000+08:00

SHOUTOUTS :

thanks ZE
hello KAPO ; someone who jump from SP to TP. machiam changing primary schools liddat. haha.
thanks wan jin cya around in YCS
hello Bangz. no la. i was pretty tired and someomore early in the morning. lol
thanks fyn. pass it to me when you got it or something
hello NORIKO. it's been some time since i chatted w/ u or something. all the best for your O's ! !

2006-05-19T15:35:00.000+08:00

I wanted someone to talk to yesterday night but it was midnight. Everyone was asleep. I want to pour out some stuffs.

DON'T YOU LET ME CATCH YOU ! ! ! DON'T YOU EVER FORCE ME TO SLAP YOU ! ! ! COULD YOU WAKE UP ! ! ! HOW OLD ARE YOU ALREADY ! ! !

2006-05-19T00:02:00.000+08:00

AM I SUFFERING FROM DEPRESSION ! ! !
I WANT DREAMWEAVER PROGRAMME ! ! !
I WANNA CREATE WEBSITE ! ! !
I HAVE TO HAND IN IISO RESEARCH NXT MONDAY ! ! !
I HAVE TO HAND IN NMM PROPOSAL 2 WEEKS LATER ! ! !
I WANT TO SHOP BUT NO MONEY ! ! !
I LEFT DB TRAINING . . . WTH ! ! !
I BEEN FEELING MOODY FOR THE PAST WEEK ! ! !

2006-05-16T23:29:00.000+08:00

I haven't smile for a long time. Someone please brighten my mood. ((:

2006-05-15T21:23:00.000+08:00

I haven't had a nice day for about going to 4 or 5 days I think. I need to have fun before I can start my project. Grr' Downtown East & St Regis

2006-05-14T00:07:00.000+08:00

I lost a huge amount of money for today. It taught me something. No matter how strong the team is, it still have to depend on your luck. Luckily Chinyang nvr bet cause he always claim he loses when he bets. I'm counted lucky(thank God for leaving me a path way out) that I never lost all my winnings and gonna work to keep my savings above my targeted range. Gotta sleep. Tmr a long day! ! ! Monday freaking A-maths test !

2006-05-12T22:11:00.000+08:00

TODAY SUCKS. mich wanted me to post sth more interesting about my life. not just about soccer and studies. guess what? the last time i had fun was when they planned my birthday for me. Im dead serious. My life has turned so bad since Poly started. Today I made my frndd VERY UPSET. So guess whad could been better? There no functions in Pasir Ris, I'm still using soccer as a source of income.

LIVERPOOL -1
BAYERN MUNICH -1
LEVERKUSEN -1/4

2006-05-09T18:18:00.000+08:00

I haven't been really studying. Everyday go school just seems like I'm gng somebody's house to slack. OLE sucks. It's so complicated which I think. Some lecturers sucks especially Amaths when one of the lecturer said "actually you all shouldn't take CMaths2=Amaths . It seems like as if we have a choice. Projects coming, term tests coming. What the hell am I supposed to do? Argh. FUCK!

2006-05-07T12:41:00.001+08:00

1.Arsenal -1 3/4 (won)
2.Bolton -1 (draw)
3.West Brom +3/4 (won)
4.Middlesbrough +3/4 (lost)
5.Fulham <2>
6.Manchester Utd >2 3/4 (won)
7.Newcastle Lvl (won)
8.Newcastle <2>
9.Liverpool -3/4 (won)
10.Portsmouth >2 1/4 (won)
11.Tottenham -3/4 (lost)
12.West Ham <2>

My soccer career for EPL has come to an end. Don't think I won a lot. These were all my predictions ONLY. I only bet on Liverpool & Arsenal for today only. I overslept and my frndd was outside so din't have time to discuss about it. Am I betting for World Cup? I will but it always depend on handicap. As for Champions League, I'm taking Arsenal.

2006-05-05T19:41:00.000+08:00

I haven't been blogging in ages. Time flies. It's been 2 weeks Im in TP though I still can't adapt to the new course. I know God will be there for me when I need His help. Let's rewind my life back a few days. Yesterday went for a M.I III with a few classmates. The show was great. Wednesday, I went down for DB training and I must say it's tough and it's like preparing guys for Army. I know I won't be in the team but I wanna see how long I can take the training. Even IF "I'm in the DB, I won't make it my long-term CCa. People will find it very cool cause you are fit enough to be in there and envy your body figure or something. Nothing interesting been happening. For secondary schools, they are having MYE so I wished them good luck and study smart and hard. Hopefully tomorrow will be my shopping day!!! BAG.SWEATER.FOSSIL.

2006-05-03T16:01:00.000+08:00

I been gambling too much. I should come to a stop.
Hope you are the one who shall motivate me those
stuffs that been bothering me. I don't like IT but
everything is too late.

-kicking the habit out of my room ! ! ! ! ! !

2006-04-26T06:28:00.000+08:00

YES AH
YES AH
YES AH

ARSENAL WON !

BARCELONA WON !

The Clash of The Titans

Henry & Ronaldinho

2006-04-23T23:11:00.000+08:00

how great. tmr sch starting. ENJOY IT. wth. I ENJOY EAT
just now went for a talk on da vinci code. it was hilarious and
detailed. love it.

2006-04-22T01:45:00.000+08:00

2 days of orientation at TP has ended. HOORAY !
It was totally fun. Too many details to talk about.
So I shall cut short. The seniors were great. Ehhh.
I wna thank yuanting and Ivan for being my grp
leader although Ivan dint wanted this class in the
1st place. IVAN ! you are so dead if some of the
class people see this. (but I don't think they will come) lol.
Then there's still RON & LEX for being the CLOWNS
but brought much joy to us. Tonight, there was a Jam+R&B
session @ Sports Complex. I din't wanted to go because
was rather tired, din't had much rest after that Arsenal match.
OH YA ! I must mention this. Business people are good at
dancing. don't know why either. I sucks totally. I need a dance
instructor and I think I've someone in mind. LOL. NICOLE ! ! !

2006-04-20T15:07:00.000+08:00

ARSENAL WON 1-0 at Highbury.
YEAH ! ! !

prepared to see Barcelona v Arsenal

2006-04-19T22:37:00.000+08:00

feeling sad & fustrated

2006-04-19T05:54:00.000+08:00

FCB won AC 1-0
DUMDUM lost $60
But the ball is round
later buy S$10 on Villarreal
If win, get $40
Miracle do happen sometimes

2006-04-16T23:30:00.000+08:00

15th April

thank you very much for celebrating my belated birthday. it was indeed a surprise.
thanks mich for the plan
thanks weiling for the best lie
thanks huhhhhh for the nice card
thanks lynn for the secretive and hardy etc

16th April

I lost my catholic faith. It's my fault. I was rebellious in Secondary school and I skipped catechism classes frequently which leads me in not understanding my faith. Just now, I called Father for advice, he asked me to go R.C.I.A to get back my catholic faith. I guess I really need to do that. Today the P&W was very nice, loved it a lot. I was warmly welcomed by the church. I was rather embarrased at the end. Only those people will know. hahaha.

*sorry lynn to make you worried and stressed
*weiling. I welcome you to God's family. I will help you wherever I can when I'm in RCIA.

2006-04-15T14:49:00.000+08:00

MYY LIFE IS GETTING BORING AND BORING.
SCHOOL REOPENING
EXCITEMENT, FUN, ENTERTAINMENT, HAPPY, JOY !!!!
WHERE ARE YOU ALLLLL !!!!!!!!!!

2006-04-15T00:31:00.000+08:00

I may not be the man(eighteen) where people will envy you having such a suave boyfriend
But I will tell you that I'm the man who can love you whole-heartedly and give you security

*may should change to will but it's to console myself
*but if I were to have a girl like you, I will contented enough
*the above contents have no particular person Im referring to (HAHA)

2006-04-12T22:38:00.000+08:00

8thApril
I celebrated my birthday at the Sec5 chalet. Only Ms Chong was able to come down with "Subaru".Whn the clock strikes 12, I was cycling on the expressway. thanks those pple who wished me.

9th April
Went home in the morning and attended mass @ 7.30am. Reached home, I just quickly went to slp. Woke up and called people but they'r not free so I stayed @ home the whole day.

hmm. i wanna put braces but my family don't have the kind of money. sighh.

2006-04-09T13:14:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DONAVAN
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME

stayed @ home the whole day. ROTTED.

2006-04-06T23:03:00.000+08:00

Today celebrated my birthday in advance w/ my YCS friends. It's really great because I seldom have the time to meet up with them and most of them from JC and are so busy. So I'm really grateful they took their precious time to celebrate with me. We had a hard time choosing The Producers Or Keeping Mum but in the end we chose The Producers ( Sexual References ). It sounds like some kind of phantom of the opera but it was not that bad as I thought of. So I shall give it 3 out of 5 stars. After 2 hours of movie, shopped in Carrefour and I found my fruit vine but I din't buy it yet. I LOVE U GUYS ! ! !

Tmr will be @ chalet and it's prty screwed up. Imagine a sad scenario, teachers coming to see SO FEW SEC5 JOY STUDENTS. WHAT A DISGRACE ! GO HOME AND REFLECT. It's just a gathering for the last time, bother about familiar or not familiar. Din't we see each other for 2-3 years already? Some kind of sense of belonging to the school or class. We put in the effort in inviting the teachers, finding a big place to hold 2 classes of people. In the end, what we get? Nothing. People backing out at last minute when shopping is done and expenditure planned. I'm not representing any party to speak up for, I did it for myself.

Sunday, will be spending some time w/ my juniors maybe for a movie and dinner thats all.

no longer

2006-04-03T21:17:00.000+08:00

boring for today. no gym no work no fun.

she no longer needs me in her life.
she no longer needs a listening ear.
she no longer needs 12 hugs at night.
she no longer needs a kiss at night.
she no longer needs a call at night.

she no longer like anyone; no d no g no j ? true?

2006-04-02T15:22:00.000+08:00

It's been confirmed that I am sick. I din't rest last night. I stayed up to watch soccer match and was on the bed already but my cousins came ovr because my uncle and aunt gng abroad so they will be staying with us for a few days and they woke me up. Now Im really tired and restless.

My losses for soccer bettings had totalled up to S$90. This thursday HOPEFULLY TO be my comeback. Arsenal & Barcelona. I just wanna win back what I lost. haha. Boon had said I'm addicted to soccer betting. This is quite true because I have been buying Barcelona for the 2 bets. So stay tune on Thursday to see if I win back my money or incur(i donno is this the correct word; heck la) more losses.

I think this could be my birthday schedule
6th : I wld be going out with YCS friends.
7-8th : I wld be @ class chalet and they wld be throwing a celebration for April babies
9th : I think I wld be gng out with some juniors from High School
so I guess this cld be it

SHOUTOUTS :

67* & JO* : nobody are born faggots, morons, bitches or bastards. Nobody always win, whn you lost, just learn to climb up yourself.

Jan : I know when your bdae kaes. It's on 9thNOV

Jas : hmm. My birthday wish ? Wait till my bdae then I think. lols

2006-03-31T20:54:00.000+08:00

not gonna have anymore birthday chalet but thr a Class chalet @ East Coast on the 7th, 8 and 9. Interested classmates, please contact Yushu. I wanted to have a big gathering but my mom said it's a waste of money. So on the 8th, there will be a celebration of April babies and on the 9th, I will leave it to any friends who wna call me out which I've not heard about anything yet. lol. The most; like whad boon said, dont celebrate is the best la. haha.

2006-03-30T02:07:00.000+08:00

gym-ed w/ nic, boon, ben, jas and jo in the noon @ Compass Heights. Went for lunch @ food court and went home to change for shopping in town. Very tired so I wasn't really in the mood. had basketball and my record was 435 points for 200secs. TOO LOW ! hahaha.

JACKET & BAG !!!

Should I ?

2006-03-28T23:18:00.000+08:00

Should I open a chalet for my birthday? Please share your views.

KL trip cancelled

2006-03-27T22:15:00.000+08:00

IT'S BEEN CANCELLED. SPEEDY RECOVERY FOR YUSHU. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME SOON. CHALET? OR SMALL GATHERING.

no turning back

2006-03-26T00:25:00.000+08:00

she said everything is too late. she can't turn back anymore. should i just leave it? sighh.

this is retribution i guess.

It's been hard on you.

2006-03-22T02:52:00.000+08:00

I can't manage to update daily. Am I so busy? haha. Just a recap of what happened the past few days. Sunday was working @ Carlton till midnight and supper @ 401.Watched Yours , Mine , Ours on Monday with boon and yang. 3 out of 5 stars. Tuesday went for medical check up @ Raffles Hospital with boon (high class people huh) hahaha. OH NO ! my height was 1.76m and Im obese. SHIT ! lol. nvm, I'm used to being FAT. Had lunch @ Bugis Cafe and Gelare with Vincent,Yang for dessert.Walked around @ Trendy Zone and bought nicole present. We head down to Penisular to look for shoes and I bought street soccer shoes just for outdoor purpose I guess. To B&Y disappointment, they couldn't find a pair of ideal shoes. It was night time and went for BBQ @ datou apartment because it's HIS BIRTHDAY ! I guess I'm the best CHEF and FIRE CONTROL MAN. lol. OH YA! I spent finish $90 cash not including my shoes. It's just on food; how worse can it be. Tomorrow gotta wake up early to go Nic's house to complete the enrolment form and head down for gym training. Do i have the determination? grr' Thursday will be working 5pm till 1am. Friday relax, Saturday and Sunday will start the battle again. I miss her. He could see her everyday but I couldn't.

2006-03-19T12:22:00.000+08:00

I'm left w/ 10days to apply for my TP course online. I need some help, most probably vincent. haha. deducting CPF from my dad's account, apply online,check-up,passport photo. still donno got whad shit la. 10days! remember!

piglet

2006-03-19T00:18:00.000+08:00

im so freaking lazy. i haben enrol myself into TP through internet. later i got no school to go into, i die. haha.

2006-03-18T12:44:00.000+08:00

I received an air combo. Receiving treatment in progress.

Is this a joke or something? When you hang on to me, I chose to let you go. Now I'm hanging on to you but I don't know what you are thinking. I know I will hang on to you before my stamina runs out.

Have you learnt to cherish before it's gone ?

2006-03-15T22:01:00.000+08:00

It's hard maintaining a blog, I should say. I need to work long hours some days to earn more money and have fun with friends to relieve stress and enjoy ourselves when we are still young. Furthemore we have such a long break so we must make full use of it. Talking about this, I haven't go for medical check up, apply tuition grant and apply myself into the school online. Yest just went to WWW with some usual Sec5 peeps and it was my 1st time but I din't realise there were only so little rides available. Luckily, we only paid $4 for it. Played U-lala and Slide Up twice and had fun taking photos but din't buy it. After lunch @ KFC, we slacked @ the shiok pool and played catching @ Yakult Professor Lab. After a long day, we had our dinner @ hougang mall and some went on to have dessert @ Kovan while I made my way to YCS camp and some people dread to see me there(especially lynn) LOL. Right now, my shoulders kana sunburnt and yesterday din't had a good slp.
I' m still left with date movie. Nanny Mcphee : 2.5/5 , Shaggy Dog : 3/5

upcoming programmes for this week

2006-03-11T16:57:00.000+08:00

Sunday, I will go attend mass in the morning and proceed to work @ 11am till 11pm. I will needa rush home and get a good sleep to prepare for the fight on 10am till 10pm on Monday at Dover. Tuesday will be a chill-out for the Sec5 again @ WWW. HOORAY !!!

MOVIES : NANNY MCPHEE,DORM, SHAGGY DOG AND DATE MOVIE

shoutouts

2006-03-07T15:06:00.000+08:00

I'm currently busy working and playing at the same time so I din't had time to come online to blog lyk the previous few days. Tagboard was being flood by 10 people so decided to reply them here. hahaha. latr gng for steamboat and tmr working @ 6am which I hafta wake up @ 4.30am and on thursday will be working 4pm and I think I will be resting on friday but saturday maybe going midnight cycling. So this will be my schedule for the week.

SHOUTOUTS :

wanjin : thank you very much for always praying for me. (:
mich : HAHA. u should ! change that wearing JC thing. wear it during 1st 3 months la. haha. Where your fireman ?
jan : It's not a bad choice but now a bit late to reconsider huh?
luoer : thank you
boon : what mean ??
huanying : do i have the nurse's looks ? lols
yingying : I've resigned myself to fate. lols
banglun : haha. Navy don't want me liao so I decided to join Singtel. HAHAHA

STRESSED

2006-03-05T01:47:00.000+08:00

STRESSED ! boon got into HTM through JPSAE. beat that. he got a nice reply, my reply from TP was

Dear GOH JIA QING DONAVAN / S88*****G
We regret to inform you that you are not successful in your course application. Thank you for your interest in JPSAE.
JPSAE Administrator

ONCE AGAIN, I NEED YOU GUYS' PRAYERS TO HELP ME SUCESSFULLY GET INTO ENGINEERING SO THAT I CAN SERVE THE NAVY.

OH NO !

2006-03-04T23:34:00.000+08:00

shit. i can't make it for church tmr. how?! grr' i intending to go into engineering course now but don't know whether can i make it. it seems like im more like fufilling my dad's wish rather than my interest. people pursue their dreams & ambitions but i can't due to my results. *regretted but it's pointless. so now hopefully can appeal into engineering course and serve the NAVY.

FUCKED UP

2006-03-03T23:50:00.000+08:00

for once, my life is so screwed up. my heart sunk as deep as the sea not yet the ocean. what's happening to my life?

i wish to hear the truth from you and no one else. i could not believe it's you. please wake me up from my dreams. was it my fault so this is Retribution

JAE RESULTS

2006-03-03T10:34:00.000+08:00

shit. i got posted to Mobile & Wireless Communications. hms. i don't see any future prospects in that course either so im gonna appeal. grr' i put this as my 6th choice sia.

God, I know that I've not been praying nightly lately and I hope you will show me the right path and give me your blessings in my future studies. Amen

1st Day in L.T

2006-03-02T23:18:00.000+08:00

Today was my 1st day reporting for my new job. It was quite alright in the beginning. The people were friendly and they taught me what to do and what not to do. It was relaxing around noon while out of a sudden, people just keep coming in from nowhere. Thn this manager started to get on my nerves, he did it to my other 2 friends too but they were alright with it but I could not take it. Just take it that I'm stubborn yea? He keep saying why you so slow, can you work faster or not and by looking at his face, it really pissed me off. Somehow I think upon myself working in the society next time, I will still have to face the employers. Am I still young for it? I think I should start preparing for it. After work, went to watch FD 3 with boon and yang. Yang never fails to make extra sound effects like sssss,eerrrrr,wahhh,f***, k** and many exciting phrases. He claimed that he regretted watching this NICE show and should have watched Pink Panther which last week, he said that it's such a lousy show that he would not go watch it. Irony.

ROT IN SPORE

2006-03-01T22:16:00.000+08:00

I can't join my friends to BK already due to my dad. He said : It's so messy over there right now because of the election. You never watch the news arh? FUCK THAT.

Sec5 Outing

2006-03-01T00:29:00.000+08:00

rowI'm dead beat today. Shall update you guys tomorrow. IT WAS GREAT ! ((: 1stMarch

2nd March. After 12hrs of sleep, still very tiring. haha. surprisingly boon still woke up to go work in the morning. I woke up late and hurried down to meet up with eleanor,jan,pengseng,melvin,wee keat and banglun. We reached there and met up with the rest(dewei,noel,boon,grace,enjie,pengyee,kahxiang,vincent and yushu)We had 4hrs+ of cyclying in East Coast and wanted to cycle to Changi Village but halfway there, Kah Xiang bicycle broke down and we had no choice but to turn back. Yesterday, in total we had 3 bicycles breakdown. The next upcoming event is trip to Thailand(Bangkok) and most of the people have confirmed except me. Tonight I'll have to ask my dad about it and see whether he will fork out a bit of $ for me or not. Then, I'll ask my mom how much she is willing to fork out for me. Thn I can tell eleanor whether I'll be going. grr. I hate financial problems! ! !

phobia of balls ?

2006-02-27T22:28:00.000+08:00

had soccer with nutz today but I still can't overcome the phobia of ball. when the ball comes, my eyes will be shut or else i escape from being hit? I din't had this a few years back when I was playing either. Does it had to do with lack of playing? Now when I played basketball, I might even 'SIAM' . wth. that makes me like sissy. duh. nth much to say. sian. let my team damn sian.

2006-02-25T22:28:00.000+08:00

I guess I have reached a decision

It's hard to tell that the life we live in is life or dream

sense of belonging

2006-02-25T00:20:00.000+08:00

I've no sense of belonging to my present church now. I don't know why. When I was younger, it was Father Kenson and Raymond who was my "catechist"(donno the spelling) who motivate me to go. When I was around teenage years, it was Father Fred. Now Father Fred has gone to other church and there seems no friends in my church, it's been me going alone every single sunday and sometimes the sight of him makes me very angry. I know it's somehow a sin but ...

Today went petals for dinner to try out Xuanyang's culinary skills. It was above my expectations and the price is reasonable too. $28 for 6 courses and once again, each time there's a pretty girl, they will sabotage me.

HOTTEST & CRAZIEST TOPIC IN TOWN

2006-02-23T07:00:00.000+08:00

So have you guys heard about it? A girl's (Tammy) handphone got stolen by enemy and happened to browse through one of the videos containing Tammy having sex with her boyfriend. Enemy wanted to take revenge so forward the video to NYP students and lecturers and this topic has been going on non-stop for 4 days. Someone claims that the video contained them having **** sex which is illegal which can get the boy jailed and PIAK PIAK (Caning). This video is 10mins long and 4.8mb which I suspect is taken by a 7610 phone because the video format is in .3gp. Now, NYP's name been tarnished by this scandal thing. So which side are you on? Do you pity Tammy? Do you pity NYP? What about her boyfriend? How should he be dealt with?

New Specs

2006-02-20T21:24:00.000+08:00

Today was boring, spent whole day playing XBOX. Tomorrow gonna work and same for wednesday and sunday. Yesterday bought a pair of new specs and 1 year supply of contact lens @ $265 and my dad was kind enough to pay for me. The truth has come to light, I don't know what is my next step. Anyway, going movies the next few days, gonna catch Pink Panther, Final Destination 3, Rumour Has It and maybe The Fog.

Music Fest

2006-02-19T16:17:00.000+08:00

Music Fest was a 80% success I should say. Two items went wrong so I was quite sorry. I was very tired but I guess I had some fun playing with the lights and I hate it when the emcees keep saying : " AV GIRLS, CAN I HAVE THE LIGHTS ON ! " . grr. left halfway to have dinner w/ brin,rach,mel,dawn and mich. had a great time cause they were so funny and lame. It's always great to hang out with younger people because it will remind you of your younger days. haha. thanks for you guys company.

ermm...

2006-02-18T01:08:00.000+08:00

SHE is one that I loved most.
HER is one that I admired most.

I can't make any decisions cause'
I don't wanna hurt anyone.

Sorry to both who are reading this.

2006-02-14T22:54:00.000+08:00

L1R4 = 22

It ain't a good score but Im alright with it. Most of all, I wanna use this chance to thanks all those friends who have prayed for me especially nicole, ycs peeps, gabriel,evon,natalie schoolmates and etc. sorry for leaving out some names but u can tell me and I will put it on. hah. With this kind of score, it's hard for me to get into business. Still got a long way to go. Lastly, thank you GOD. Amen.

Will I Cry ?

2006-02-09T22:45:00.000+08:00

hms. left with 16 more hours to meet my deadline. im so tensed up, i couldn't speak much. my mouth seems to be stuffed with a bun. God forte is make miracles, will it be my turn tmr ? IF i get bad results tmr, will i cry over it? It will be so shameful huh but only got to blame myself. I really appreciate my friends who been praying for me. Thanx

why do I need a miracle ?

2006-02-07T22:18:00.000+08:00

hms. my dad expects me to go into I.T.E if I cant get into a Poly. I really dread this feeling of getting the results. This certificate is so important; if I don't achieve a good one, I got no where to go. What if all my results turned out to be all D7 except chinese. Why MOE hasn't change anything for the better? Studies are so stressful and we receive nothing but homework and remedials. What do we get in the end? Knowledge and Cert. What am I saying anyway? As the day is nearing, my heart sank deeper each day. The fear of seeing a 2 as the initial. I got 29 for my prelims, my miracle is 16. L1R4 = 4 , 3 , 3 , 2 , 4 / 5 , 3 , 3 , 3, 2 / 6 , 3 , 3 , 2 , 2
There are so many combinations. My combined humans is dead. I'm just nice left with English, Chinese, Maths, Science and F&N. what the ***. All I'm asking for is to ask Jesus to give me just one chance to get into this course by interview because I can't aim any lower.

Minnie Mouse

2006-02-07T14:25:00.000+08:00

I won a minnie mouse @ the arcade yesterday. It was pure luck; I was just trying my luck and manage to catch it at the 3rd or 4th try. There was this couple beside me and this girl was persuading me to give it to this lady who been trying many times but to no avail.. There were so many thoughts running through my mind but w/o hesistation, I told the girl to pass to the lady. In the end, the lady thank me and gave me 2 bucks. This time, I wasn't filled w/ regrets nor greed. I also din't expect anything in return. Was HE trying to test something out of me? Was HE giving me a chance to prove something. Lord, Im quite a miser at times due to my financial problems, was this a test for me? Can I lose a minnie mouse in return for a miracle? Does miracle happen in this way? This friday reveals the answer.

depression once more

2006-02-05T23:24:00.000+08:00

depressed.

MIRACLE

2006-02-01T22:02:00.000+08:00

Time fly real fast. It's Feb now and what's new? People are all discussing about O Level results. I keep telling myself I am prepared for the worst scenario but I guess I am putting on a brave front. If I passed two subjects, I will not be able to retain in school. I need to get 15-17 range for L1R4 because my prelims got 29 and I'm hoping it will get below 20 although business courses need around 12-14 especially hospitality and tourism. Mrs Fernandez told me, no point looking at ur old path, u should look ahead. Maybe I think too much about the mistakes I had done and din't plan for my path ahead. I don't mind wasting 1 more year but I don't wanna waste it. I've wasted one year but I'm in no position to decide. Sometimes, prayers do make miracles happen. Will it happen to me this time?

Sec2 Adventure Camp

2006-01-20T23:03:00.000+08:00

Back from the Sec2 Adventure Camp. It was fun being INSTRUCTORS. haas.
How did the instructors come about? Actually, we were BELAYERS on the 1st day, 2nd day we were familiar with the equipment and some students called us INSTRUCTORS so I told the team that we shall be called INSTRUCTORS instead. haha. The camp was fun but we ain't that popular like PSLs maybe due to they socialise with students more than we do. Furthermore, our appointed jobs was belaying in the 1st place and we din't have much things to do after high elements. I was in charge of the Zip Line(flying fox) and Mountain Climbing. We were
entitled to free Macdonald after the camp fire. haha. It was a great expericnce for me.

2006

2006-01-06T16:09:00.000+08:00

NEW YEAR
NEW GOALS
NEW EXPECTATIONS